Every individual has a sort of engine inside. It drives you through life and it works sort of decently in the different roads you have to pass through because sometimes to drive in a highway it's not the same as driving through the dessert or through a fucking swamp (got it?).
You'd need different kinds of engines for different scenarios and that's the reason why there are so many different types of cars. Some are better for traveling through city, others for the countryside and the like.
So here it comes the problem. You only have ONE engine. And which type of engine it is? I have no idea. Do I know what kind of engine I have? I'm almost sure but not 100%. It is very important to know what type of engine you have in order to know which type of road to take. You can't go to the mountain in a mini-cooper or drive around the streets in a fucking tank.
I have thought many times since I was a little kid that if something happened to my fingers or to my hands so they have to be removed or something, I'd have 2 choices: go to the countryside in solitude and cultivate the land for ever or kill myself. I wouldn't float around like a dumb motherfucker with a goddamn thing in my hands to play the guitar. Probably I wouldn't take the shit that involves to be in that situations so probably I'd go for the second option.
So the only thing that really makes me happy is to play and listen to music. But mainly to play an instrument. I'm free while I have the strength. I make the rules. It gives me power and control. But not in the sense we are used to:
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| If you look closely you can see that the guy in the picture is actually happy. |
It gives me power in the sense that I'm able to control the world around me, escape from reality maybe (personal shit right there).
At least that was the way I used to feel. I have to say I'm under a BIG-FUCKING-MASSIVE-MONSTER-ASS VORTEX OF STRESS. So I have no energy to play a fucking string. That's why my music sucks so hard recently. But that's o' right, I'm in the final year of my career studying to be an English Teacher so they have to put a lot of weight on us. The problem is I'm always too tired to play the guitar (or the bass).
But fortunately that brings some results:
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| FCE certificate |
Flatuleitor out.
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